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| WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE. ALL SIGNS LEAD TO SAN JOSE FOR ME. I MISS YOU TAKE CARE OF YOUR SELF. MY LOVE FOR YOU STILL GROWS IN MY HEART. I BELIEVE IN FOREVER BECAUSE YOU HELPED ME BELIEVE IN IT. REMEMBER THAT RAE LOOK BACK AND REMEMBER THAT.
FOREVER LOVE
RENEE | | |
| Rachel i love you more and more ever day. i just wanted you to know that. i love your habits and adore your thoughts. i ready to experience the greatest things in life with you. wheather those experiences may some too extreme to some i know that your love for me is so DEEP as well as my love for you. thank you for being on my case about emotions i put off. i love you so so much, more than words can say. okay i'm done see you at home. thats so cool that i can see you when i get home cuz well we live together now. YESSSSSSSSSS!!! | | |
| This song came on at work the other day while I was sweeping up little bits of taco from under the tables. I heard the words for the first time and I thought of you. And I cried. And I miss you. So much.
Could you whisper in my ear
The things you wanna feel
I'll give you anything
To feel it coming
Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide
Yeah were gonna let it slide
Don't you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you
Don't supposed I'll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can't change
I'll live around it
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide
And I'll do anything you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
Oh may
Put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh May
Do you wanna get married or run away
And I'll do anything you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
Oh may
Put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh may
Do you wanna get married or run away
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all | | |
| no one can take this away from us. some may naysay or shake their heads in disapproval, but the only proper explanation for is that they just don't know about this love. they don't know. they don't know because when life is beautiful, no one bothers to ask why. whenever a frown or teary eye appears, echoing from every treetop and turn-lane are muttered and insincere, "are you okay"s and "what's wrong"s. but when everything is lovely, no one wonders or cares to be informed. granted, no one wants to be on the receiving end of anyone's grocery list of woes, but when a friend casually, asks, "how's [your spouse's name]?" do they really care to hear you prattle on about how you're absolutely sure you've found that one mythological one that somehow, cosmically, was created solely to be embraced by the curvatures of the puzzle piece in your soul, and that even you, yourself sometimes can't believe it--until you see that silken look on their face that just automatically whispers "i love you" in every way you'd always dreamed you;d hear it? i mean, does anyone ever want to make time to hear these things? are these sentiments locked away inside all of us always, only to be let out briefly inside trashy romance novels, where they're tainted and devalued by sleaze, sweat, and sex, and read by women who only cry in lament and pathetic longing, led to believe by the fantasy of the trash they read, that these things don't really exist in the real world? this saddens me. maybe if we made more time for love in our lives then things would brighten up a bit. not to sound corny and cliche, but a little love goes a long way. if we all stopped keeping it inside, and if we all made time to pay attention to the love in the world, there'd be a lot less negativity. they naysay because they don't know. they just don't know. | | |
| i miss you always. everytime i go into the kitchen to pour my stupid liquid diet into those three little medicine cups, i wish you were right behind me, ready to comfort me and make some kind of joke about this crappy process. and kiss me afterward. and everything would be ok because when i needed to, i'd hug you, and i wouldn't let go until i felt like i could continue on my own.
i want you next to me when i sleep so that i can watch you until i start to dream, holding you lightly and letting our arms touch just a bit so that i know you're here with me. i'll wake up in the middle of the night and see your hair all over the place because you've turned over in your sleep, but i cuddle up against your back anyway, because i love all of you. your body heat drives me nuts, cuz every time i touch you it's like 187 degrees, but i want to be as close to you as possible, so i let it slide for the night. in the morning, as usual, somehow we manage to wake up at the same time. of course, you've been up a few times before, going to the bathroom, stretching, waking up from dreams. but when i open my eyes, there you are...staring back at me just one second later.
i really wish this situation was different, and i know you do too, but...time. it fucking sucks to say that, but it's all we have. time. there's things that have to happen before we can be together, babe. we can do this. we have rough patches where it's almost impossible to be in our separate worlds; apart, lonely, frustrating. there are 200 miles and just as many complications between us, but our live is amazing, babe, and with just a little bit of patience, and not as much time as it seems, we will be together. it's going to happen. i love you so much. sooo much. you are the sunshine in my life. omg love cliches. how great.
i can't wait to wake up to you every day. i love you in ways no other human has ever contemplated. waiting til our next kiss....... | | |
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